At music conference not long ago, I learned a new, simple chorus. Here are the words:
3x- Lord, whatever you're doing in this season, don't do it without me, don't do it without me.
3x- Lord, if you're blessing in this season, please, don't do it without me, don't do it without me.
3x- Lord, if you're healing in this season, please, don't do it without me, don't do it without me.
Like I said, simple, but that's what's been on my heart. I feel like I've wasted enough time doing things I shouldn't, or not doing things I should. I want to make a difference in someone's life. I want to have a big effect on this city. I want to go to heaven and hear "Well done, thou good and faithful servant." Almost 5 years ago, my family and I left our comfort zone in Fairfield, and moved here to Oakley to start a church. We've had so many ups and downs. Just when it seemed like things we're going good and picking up, someone would leave, or a something very unfortunate would take place. I know that's been hard for my family, and the rest of the people in our small church. And to be honest, and think we all hit rock bottom. But now, we've to go back UP! I don't know how to explain, but it feels like something great is about to happen. Somebody's going to get the Holy Ghost for the first time, because of me. Somebody's life is going to turn around, I just know! I feel excited! We've had awesome church the past 2 weeks after a few months of "rock bottom."
I gave some things back over to God last week, and I'll admit, it was hard. I was struggling with a lot, more than anyone knew. But once I gave in and gave my will and my heart back over to God, I've felt soooo much better, and it's like a new life and a new excitment about living for God has taken over me. Yes, I don't have very many local friends, and I've complained about it and pouted about it long enough. In your face devil! I'm going to go win some people to God, and then maybe I'll have some local friends. I guess it's about time I stop being stupid and realize it, no matter what. Plus, I'll be able to (hopefully) see my good friends who don't live near me more often when I get my license...next month I guess.
Anyhow.........I've heard so many stories of people that have prayed people through right in the grocery store, or in a park or whatever. And I've had a few visions (Ok, daydreams is more like it) of doing things like that. I want to!!! But pray for me, I need help with the whole "confidence in witnessing to people" thing. Does anyone have any tips that might help?
I now realize, that if I want to see all these great things happens because of me, I have to be willing to surrender things over to God. If I can't treat Jesus like a good friend, then I won't be able to show his love through me--but, it I do treat Jesus like a good friend, and obey him, and I can and will show his love through me.